Being Alone

Hi Guys. I know I’ve been M.I.A. for a couple of months now. Don’t know why actually. Just think my mind has been going through some stuff. But I’m back (for now)..

These days I feel a little weird though. The sun is bursting out and people are crawling out to drink wine and eat good food together. The social media is overflowing with pictures, videos etc. people hanging out and enjoying the weather together. It all seems very nice, it really does. I’ve gotten tons of invites too. But I’ve turned them all down. For some reason I’d rather like to ride through the forrest alone with my horse and feel the wind on my face and in my hair. This is how I recharge my energy. Not by being surrounded by people all the time. It has gotten to the point where, if I have more than two social appointments during the week (besides work), I feel compelled to decline a third invitation. I like my own company so much. It makes me a little worried sometimes that I don’t even feel bad about being by myself or just spending time with my horse, when I see everyone else hanging out barbecuing or tanning. But my head gets stressed out if I have to spend time with people 24/7. I love to hang out with my friends, but I will never be the typical “going out for coffee/hanging at a cafe” girl each day. I really don’t like it. I don’t find it interesting.. That being said I do have my “girly” time with friends. It happens. Just very rare. Like once or twice a month. And that’s more than enough for me. I just really enjoy my own company.

xx, Caro (and the horse)